Passing on the Invisible Sin

Inside of me lives a box like a wooden crate, full of darkness. This box sits in an all white room. The room is formless, but the box has sharp edges and jet black tentacles with no definition to them stretching out from it. They flail about and reach for anything that comes close. I cannot approach the box. It rots and creaks inside of me. There is nothing I can do to destroy it.

I did not form this thing inside me. I search for any clue to its origin. I see a single name etched into its sides. In bold letters is my name written over and over again.

It belongs to me. It is a part of me. I try not to feed it in hopes that it will disappear, but it feeds off of me. I realized that it is me. When I was born, it was born. It has grown as I have grown. When I breathe, it breathes.

This box is original sin. It feeds off of life and lives inside all of us. It is a darkness that I cannot get rid of, no matter how hard I fight it. I can never destroy another’s box. Through giving birth, I have passed it on. Inside of my son is a box with his name inscribed on it. No matter how hard I try, I cannot remove it from him. He will bear this darkness as well.

Only one who is pure can fight it. Only one who knows me can control it. Upon my death, He will destroy this box that continues to mar me. All I can do is pray that He destroys the box within all of us.


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Romans 7:15-24 English Standard Version (ESV) biblegateway.com

15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

21 So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. 22 For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23 but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. 24 Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?